tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-68892477376567956882011-04-21T21:39:10.270-07:00IcE-CooL_DeViLhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15177395259591009675noreply@blogger.comBlogger21100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6889247737656795688.post-1302399913659622882009-01-22T08:32:00.000-08:002009-01-22T11:50:15.730-08:00<strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;">Last nite....</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;">really scared many ppl...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;">including my...myself....</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;">Well...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;">Where should i sharted 1st...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;">Ok. Let me start from yesterday morning...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;">I woke up as usual...going for medical check up. Then having breakfast with my friend.</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;">When i reach home, i took my medicine n my slepping pills cuz these day i couldn't sleep. So when i'm trying to sleep, my heart started pump so fast, i couldn't breath at all. then i started to calm myself down n try not to think negative word also thought...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;">But, I started to feel dat my heart so pain n i crying suddenly too...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;">I can't stop cry cuz i also dun knw y i have dat sad feeling on me. I cry...n cry...n cry....my mum n my grandma dun knw abt it cuz i cry alone at my bedroom.</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;">Untill afternoon...i'm started feel so tired n wanna find something to hurt myself. ( kinna Stupid rite) bt luckily i control myself to calm myself down. i walk here n there still have that thought dat wanna find something to hurt myself...Oh God, i'm really so suffer...bt again...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;">i ate 1 more sleeping pill to let me sleep...finally i felt asleep.</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;">But.....</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;">At evening...I woke up..</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;">i thought is da next day of evening. Who knws dat juz past few hour only...i think around 2-3 hour i slept. well..Guess da sleeping pills nt works at all for me. The feelings still coming out. I feel so pain.....n started to cry...When i reach to the kitchen, I trying to find something sharp n easy to hurt myself....A KNIFE. i pull up n wanna cut myself, bt...i control it by forcing me to lock myself at the toilet.</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;">I can't stand it at all. I call Ivan to ask him to pray for me. He's really helping me alot. Later on my forster sis wanna me to fetch her to delivered something. I thought it will be fine if i hang out a while...but useless, and it's getting even more pain. I try to hold on n try to act like nothing happen on me...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;">Haiz....</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;">Pain still going on...i can't stand it anymore...Sofia( foster sis ) accompany me walk n i keep trying calm down myself, still useless...When i wanna crossing the road, i walk slowy and wanna try to wait the car crushing on me...Maybe that feeling feels so good to me i think. Bt luckily we safely cross by and i stopped at Petronas station at Hui Sing. My heart really getting even more pain. N i knw dat it's ME wanna come out and wanna hurt myself...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;">("ME"...will let you all knw wads is dat n y i say dat)</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;">i quickly ask her to call Ivan...I really need a help, finally...i heard Ivan call, Bt something so weird is i wanna push Sofia away from me bt i keep holding her hand. Ivan try to pray for me on phone bt i started to scold him with a diffrent voice...OMG. Bt at last, Ivan really help me out. ME getting weaker n i'm getting even more tired n lost energy...when he stop praying...my heart really getting more peaceful than b4...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;">And of cuz...i can't even walk, my friends hold me up n put me into their car. I knw who are them, they drove safely. When i reach home...Sofia suggest me to stay at her house bt i still dun wan..BT thanks alot Sofia, U really help me alot....and also Ivan...Thanks alot for being by my side. i really appriciate, u r really a good soulmate to me.</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;">Today...I feel better then b4, n I knw is i should let the past go. I shouldn't keep the past inside my heart. And i knw ME will still appear inside my heart. I will try mt best to make myself more useful and also more stronger then ME. Cuz i knw ME are still waiting for me in the future....</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span></em></strong><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6889247737656795688-130239991365962288?l=cheongmeong-ae.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>IcE-CooL_DeViLhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15177395259591009675noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6889247737656795688.post-47380036591688506902009-01-20T21:44:00.000-08:002009-01-22T03:08:14.682-08:00<div align="center"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_8ijttdseTtg/SXa7aLbPnDI/AAAAAAAAAAw/66ELmPrBWv8/s1600-h/1_703805434l.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5293624470438648882" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 186px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 158px" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_8ijttdseTtg/SXa7aLbPnDI/AAAAAAAAAAw/66ELmPrBWv8/s320/1_703805434l.jpg" border="0" /></a><strong><em><span style="color:#3333ff;">Welcome To mY IcE worLD</span></em></strong><br /></div><br /><div align="center"><strong><em><span style="color:#3333ff;">Hehehehe...</span></em></strong></div><div align="center"><strong><em><span style="color:#3333ff;"></span></em></strong><br /> </div><div align="center"><strong><em><span style="color:#3333ff;">Introduce Myself....</span></em></strong><br /></div><br /><div align="center"><strong><em><span style="color:#3333ff;">I'm IcE... Age 20......Of CUZ is Female...</span></em></strong></div><br /><div align="center"><strong><em><span style="color:#3333ff;"></span></em></strong></div><br /><div align="center"><strong><em><span style="color:#3333ff;">like to play....like to talk...like to disturbing ppl....</span></em></strong></div><br /><br /><br /><div align="center"><strong><em><span style="color:#3333ff;">so many things abt me....</span></em></strong> </div><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#3333ff;">hehehhe.......</span></em></strong><br /><br /><br /><div align="center"><strong><em><span style="color:#3333ff;">erm....</span></em></strong></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"><strong><em><span style="color:#3333ff;">I have 1 eldest brother, 1 elder sister and 1 younger sister...so i'm 3rd...</span></em></strong><br /></div><div align="center"><strong><em><span style="color:#3333ff;">We all have single mother...hope you all knw wads dat mean.</span></em></strong><br /></div><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#3333ff;">Now live together including my cute cute grandma....she's so funny....</span></em></strong><br /><br /><br /><br /><div align="center"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5293626522431467234" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 149px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 134px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_8ijttdseTtg/SXa9RnsdLuI/AAAAAAAAABA/l6mOpn1-1vA/s320/Image(330).jpg" border="0" /><strong><em><span style="color:#3333ff;">MY elDerSt BrOTHER</span></em></strong><br /></div><div align="center"><strong><em><span style="color:#3333ff;"></span></em></strong></div><br /><br /><br /><div align="center"><strong><em><span style="color:#3333ff;"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5293628694296051442" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 160px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 113px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_8ijttdseTtg/SXa_QChUvvI/AAAAAAAAABI/md_OMFPZQp4/s320/Image034.jpg" border="0" /></span></em></strong><br /></div><br /><div align="center"><em><strong><span style="color:#3333ff;">My EldeR </span><span style="color:#3333ff;">sIStER</span></strong></em></div><div align="center"><strong><em><span style="color:#3333ff;"></span></em></strong><br /></div><p><span style="color:#3333ff;"><em><strong><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5294069508575168162" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 179px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 191px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_8ijttdseTtg/SXhQKzrZhqI/AAAAAAAAABY/Y27yuyQ2gfk/s320/1_566630250m.jpg" border="0" /></strong></em></span></p><br /><p align="center"><span style="color:#3333ff;"><em><strong>my pretty mother </strong></em></span></p><p align="center"><strong><em><span style="color:#3333ff;">at this moment my younger sis and my gramdma pic nt available</span></em></strong></p><p align="center"><strong><em><span style="color:#3333ff;">hope to post it A.S.A.P.....</span></em></strong> </p><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6889247737656795688-4738003659168850690?l=cheongmeong-ae.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>IcE-CooL_DeViLhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15177395259591009675noreply@blogger.com1